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He comes to her in the darkness of night She hears his footsteps dreading what is to come next The heavy, metal door creaks as it swings inward "I have come for you" His gravelly sounding voice speaks out He grabs her by the hair of her head yanking it roughly She doesn't cry out in surprise anymore it is what she now expects He pulls her along to "The Room" the whiteness of the walls still shock her He watches as he makes her strip down to nothing She cowers in her nakedness regardless of her familiarity with this ritual She slips down onto the floor, laying down eyes on the ceiling The lights go bright; the temperature rises to un

…It happened today…as I sat there listening to music…the single last slid down my cheek…just that fast…a switch inside of me flipped…the last bit of love…incapable of love…except for one…a relief what was left for him slipped away…so was the beginning of my voyage…one that I have taken before…to a place all to myself…my inner self…cold-hearted…all things said of me before…will now be said again…a smile, no a smirk on my face…as I allowed my final thoughts…always will he be in my memories…softly I whisper "Goodbye, go be happy"…      

…a distant watcher…looks over the threads of life…her brow creased with confusion…not understanding…why would one allow such acts to continue…a simple question…receiving his desired answers… a coward's way to avoid reality…a heart weakened not sure how to feel…afraid to be alone…best to be with one who is not trustworthy…then to be alone…a hopeful soul..wishing for a change…a commitment…a foolish heart deceived …and led astray…the watcher  shakes her head…a slight roll of her   amber eyes…she looks further down the threads of life…a sigh…a

The sweet words were spoken, his voice often never louder than a whisper, as if the soft words carried more meaning. "I'll love you forever." "I have never been happier" "I miss you when you are gone" " I couldn't image my life without you, and I don't want to be without you" My heart beating contently in my chest, looking into his soft, hazel eyes, I felt he was sincere. Those days together were filled with much love, passion, and peaceful, sweet dreams. Of him, I asked but one thing, don't lie, always be straight with me. He swore he didn't want to be on the lists of "other men" the ones who used/abused me, cheated on me, or just walked awa

Softly she hears it… dancing across her ears…the beautiful sound…the music unlike any other melody she has ever heard…the words uttered from his lips…the three words that can melt the heart of many a woman…the words that we all long to hear from the one who has our heart…although to hear them from his lips is nothing new…nor unique…this day for some reason…they brought her a bit of joy…her burden…her troubles lifted as she sighed contently…wrapped in the warm blanket of his love…his arms engulfed her…it feels as though nothing in this world could hurt her…that she

You'll never know   …how one's eyes light up like a candle being lit in a darkened room when you walk in. …how one's heart skips a beat whenever your name is mentioned. …how calming effect you have over one's soul when you are present. …how safe you make one feel when you are near. …how the sound of your voice is like music on one's ears. ...how your laughter makes one want to laugh as well. …how happy you can make feel; when otherwise emotionless, simply because you are you …how it feels to have one completely faithful to you. …how it feels to be adored. …how much you are loved. …h

Once I knew what I should be Once I had the love of my children Once I knew what I was living for Once I had the love of a man unlike any other Once I could have been happy Once I knew how to not be sad Once my children were my joy Once they always came before myself Once I heard their playful laughter Once I held them in my arms Once I didn't know how it would be without them Once I looked forward to their hugs and kisses Once I knew my role in life Once I was a wife Once I was a mother Once I was a friend Once I was a lover Now I am nothing at all

My lifeless heart you hold close Sipping at my oozing pain You relish at its exquisite taste You treasure its agony You wallow in its defeat You share it with no one A treasure you torment At one time it beat just for your amusement Or so you thought as you now think Your trophy case of conquest I now adorn Was I worth your attentions was I worth all the pain Though you thrive now what really did you gain I am gone and you are now alone Enjoy this victory, I say to you tearfully At peace from beyond the grave

Murder…of a different kind She thinks carefully…examining all the possibilities…would it always be this way…or would it change…compassion tries to change her thoughts…quickly she brushes it away…it had no place matters such as these…as she slowly creeps up on her "victims"…she looks to them with disgust…those silly things had no place in her life…she would overcome them…defeat them as well…she will simply just put an end to them …a manical grin spreads across her lips…kill them…maim them…destroy them…they are her enemy…the commands go through her m